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ment the landlord said that he would cut the first month's rent if I would clean the apartment. He said that the former tenants had left in the middle of the night to avoid paying over-due rent. In cleaning the apart- ment I found a variety of clean women's clothing in closet and dresser drawers, not new but in good condition. I decided to save these in case my wife might want them, but with time on my hands, soon found my- self dressed in them and it was good! So, for one week, I dressed up every night! I realized that although the clothing nearly fitted me, they were much too large for my wife and so, to avoid trouble, at the end of the week they were reluctantly dumped into the trash can. I was never able to cross-dress again, due to a lack of privacy, time and money. My Femmephilia became a never-never land!

Two years ago I started shopping for my femmeperson. As with most FPs, I suppose, I had much to learn and made many mistakes. If I'd only had HOW TO BE A WOMAN THOUGH MALE! With a limited budget, mistakes hurt! I finally acquired a ward's Catalogue and a meas- uring tape and cut my costs! I've had to overcome hesitancy and fear in purchasing my needs and have had to swallow insults, as from an optom- etrist I leveled with. He didn't get my business. By luck, I found under- standing in my second attempt to obtain prescription glasses, so now I have a beautiful pair of bifocal glasses that fit my face and my femme- personality and at a reasonable cost! Now my closets and dresser con- tain a modest, but adequate wardrobe. I do not have many dressy clothes, but clothing of a variety designed to fit the life of a woman who must stay off the street. I have house dresses, slacks, shorts and as noted below, apparel suitable for office and for an active outdoor life.

The continued success of my work requires that my FP life remain secret. At the same time. I sincerely believe that my femme-self is not only a hidden asset, but a necessary part of the team! The science work- books should carry her name as co-author and the art work should be signed by her! The blending of masculinity and feminity helps in the business, in the technical and public contact part of the association work.

I maintain an office in my home and plan my long work day to fit my life style. During the day, as a man, I conduct my outside business and public contacts. In the evening, at home, I dress up and after dinner, take care of correspondence, write, work up notes, take care of filing or work on the artwork that will be used in the educational booklets or in displays. This schedule is broken only by required evening meetings

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